Teach me how to shine

The was only four of us left in the room, it was about 5am, pushing six and he picked up the guitar and started to play a song by the Frames.  To the left of me another guitar got picked up and their voices joined together.  Waiting for the chorus, we joined in. You could feel the room change, like magic sweeping all around us, into our lungs and back out.

“Star Star, teach me how to shine”  Looking around, I got a wink, a smile and I saw tears. It was  one of those moments you couldn’t plan but I knew would be put in a box and remembered forever.

Kitchen kisses.

I went to a party on Friday and met a guy I have known for years. I know him to see and make polite conversation. I don’t really know what he thinks about the world or what his favourite place is or how if he likes staying up late. I know he likes music and he has a great laugh. After passing the polite conversation stage, he leaned in and planted a soft slow kiss on my lips. I smiled but felt flustered. All my friends were sitting around laughing. I never kiss people when I go out, not at parties or pubs or anywhere thats in a public domain. I like first kisses to be private even if it’s just for fun. I don’t like to be surrounded by drunken people who are looking for something to give running commentary on. The cold on the roof was a good excuse to go get some tea so I wandered off to the kitchen. While waiting for the kettle to boil, he reappeared, he has followed me downstairs and continued to kiss my neck and work his way around to my lips. It was at this point  I realised that it’s only when my boys aren’t around that I get kissed, my male friend seem to intimidate other boys away some how. At times I have found this irritating but on Friday night I wished that my friend was there because not only would he have scared my kissing boy away, it would mean I wouldn’t have to miss him so much while he is abroad with work.

Wedding Dresses and Scratchy Carpet

I started to write this draft on Saturday while wearing a Wedding dress and lying on a carpet in the Raddison hotel in Cork. I had about 5 minutes to myself all day so I thought I’d blog. I then got out of bed at 6am and started to blog again but I knew my typing would wake my friends so I stopped. I went out to the garden with no shoes on and sat and looked at some baby rabbits hopping around the place.

I got back into bed and feel asleep. I was tired from the last week. I learned alot about myself though. I learned what kind of friends I want to be surrounded by, I know what way I want people to see me and I learned that a bit of feedback goes a long way. I also learned that taking your hair done and sleeping on it makes me look like a banshee.

I had such a memorable weekend. I spent half of it fretting that I had to sing on stage and I spent the other half smiling to myself. I managed not to damage any ones ear drums after singing and was quite pleased that I was able to get on stage and talk. Even though I didn’t win, I am really glad that I took part. I’m hoping the friends I’ve made will be my friends for life. I met some lovely people and it also made me appreciate my friends more.

While we were waiting around, we weren’t allowed to see the audience coming in but I just needed to see my Mom and friends and know that it didn’t matter what happened once they were there, I quickly changed my opinion when seeing them make me more nervous. The funny thing was while waiting in the Green room with my escort. Chuckles arrived freaking out because he knew I was nervous. I didn’t realise it was so hard to be an audience member. He is so strange sometimes, I had to calm him down since he was nervous because he saw I was nervous. Boys are weird.

I could hear my friends cheering when I got on stage and I could see their silhouettes in the crowd. Ronan gave me a red rose and squeezed my hand when I got off. I was happy to have him next to me and was excited to see what the others had thought. Being surrounded by the people you love is the best feeling in the whole world. Wandering around the reception area looking for Kyle (since he is the tallest) and wandering near the bar looking for Chuckles, I was stopped by strangers and told I was hilarious. There is something about a compliment from a stranger, while it makes you feel good, it’s your what your friends think that makes the difference. Waiting to find them to hear seemed like hours even though I knew it was only a few minutes. Hugs, Kisses and pats on the back were in order and the laughed that I was still shaking even though it was all over.

I didn’t want to stay there alone and it ended up being three of us in the bed and since I couldn’t sleep. I went and got breakfast and made them tea. I love these random nights in hotels only miles away from your own house. I’ve also come to realise that it doesn’t really matter where you are or what you do, it is your friends who make your world turn around.

New Year~New Start 2009

Well I left 2008 behing in a club in Gort, Co. Galway, not the most happening place but my friend lives there and sometimes I think he is lonely and I wouldn’t want anyone to feel lonely. Sometimes when I’m out I wonder if people are actaully having a good time or are they pretending like they do in the movies? It was fun thou and I love my friends so much. It was definitly one of the best New Years I’ve had.

I have a good feeling about 2009, I don’t know what it is exactly but I feel it, like it’s in the air and I can feel it building up. It’s kinda exciting really.

I feel I should be aiming for actaul things this year, I still don’t really know what I wanna do and I do kinda feel in a strange way (without sounding like I’m 100) that time is flying by and I wanna get all these new skills and learn all these languages I like the sound of, I need to get motivated and I think this is the year to do it!